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2/13/2009 Talking about "How is Your Inner Child"Your Inner Child Is Happy
12/20/2008 what a sucky world.days ago i spent a whole afternoon sitting in front of my laptop, trying to write a message to stop one of my friends' from suicide (not that i could). three and half a hour later i found all these big theories about why killing herself is wrong are so weak. and all i could come up is "...plz don't do it". i think in some ways i kind of agree with what she thought about the her life. sometimes, actually most of the time, people suck, they are cold and selfish and "the world only cares about what can be squeezed out of you".... It's just not worth staying. so the message wasn't sent, and in the past few days, what she said is sticking in my head and depresses me... a lot. i can't help wonder why some people struggle against famine, drought, disease and whatsoever, while some other people have everything those poor ones ever dream of but what to kill themselves. im not judging here, seriously. finally i felt maybe i should talk to my parents about it, hoping they might give me some advice to cheer her up... you know, considering they are "older" or more "experienced" or whatever. not that i was too drunk to think clear about what a BIG FAT STUPID decision it is. the first sentence i heard from my mother is "what kind of friends you've had?! you should keep away from those people." like she is a germ or sth. Suddenly i hate ME. what a stupid fuck i am! like ive NEVER EVER known them. Still im a bit shocked. My mother has cancer. she goes through the all depression things and i see how she talked to all our relatives and her friends, and been helped. and this is what she had. not even showing a little compassion or understanding. my father, on the other hand, asked me what was my point to brought it up, to tell some news? then he talked quite nicely about it at first. he even said that i could invited my friend over if i wanted to (yeah, easy to say, like hell i'll believe him) then he start to ask me why im so interested in those "weird staff", accusing me about my morality to make gay friends and how disappointed about my friend circles and my worldview and blah blah blah... apparently we both think each other as an arrogant asshole. only i didn't say it out aloud. at the end of the conversation, i admitted that i might be the lowest person in the world as he said and i just don't give a rat's ass. i have no desire pursuing their recognition for whatsoever. (which i think is not entirely true at this point, other wise i wouldn't be so pissed off… anyway im working on it~)
but the problem is still unsolved. i still don't know how to comfort her, i haven't heard from her for days, and she's probably dead already.
now, im still staring at a empty message board... my head is hurting like a bitch, and nothing useful is coming into my mind so far... 12/10/2008 Which creature of the night are you?im bored.
12/4/2008 Re-watch Supernatural 211 Playthings + Longest MEME I’ve ever done
Playthings 是Supernatural系列播放至今,让我最最钟爱的一集. 编剧用一对姐妹的关系来映射Sam和Dean之间的感情, 不够细心的人, 只会看到破案救人的过程, 很容易就把他们之间直接的关系忽略了. (Eric果然够狡猾...)
善良的Sam想要用自己的能力去拯救身边的每一个人, 但是命运却总是让他身边的人遭受不幸, 于是他在酒醉之后向哥哥提出一个任性的要求: 如果有一天自己不由的变成一个坏人, Dean一定帮他结束自己的生命. 却忘了这样的要求, 伤害了全世界最最爱他的人...Orz
Sam的看家武器 – "Puppy dog eye"
--做一个永远无法实现的承诺
故事的最后, 一对姐妹的鬼魂在布满洋娃娃的房间里开着永不结束的tea party... 再也没有更完美的结局了~ Hee~ ****************************** MEME Tagging/点名: EVERYONE 11/30/2008 Modern CRISIS今天我的电脑崩溃了...... 不是病毒,但是N次启动我的显示器还是无法正常工作.
给Dell维修部打电话,测试过后说,是我的显示器连接线出了问题.要星期3才能派人过来修,也就是说我今晚,明天一天,后天一白天基本和网络说88了.
本想哈~没关系~还有手机呢~
1秒钟后反应过来我的手机一个礼拜之前已报废.(知道为什么最近我一直关机了吧...=_=)
anyway......这简直就是我生活的低点 Orz
刚才想侥幸试一下,说不定他自己痊愈了......哈哈!果然! (有可能随时崩溃)
能开多久开多久吧! (狂下小说往我ipod塞ing~)
ipod -- 我和现代电子最终的联系.
这是我刚发现滴几个广告: 主题"宾至如归", 如果你是很容易就觉得尴尬的人~那就别看了~ wincest makes me happy~ always~昨天在朋友的推荐下发现了这个刚出炉热烘烘滴视频. (警告: Wincest)
多亏Yuck帮我,今天一起来就看到了HD版的文件, 怎么也传了有2-3个小时吧~ 谢谢Yuck~ You're my hero~
 这个是youtube上的LD版
选曲: Snow on the Sahara by Anggun
作者: absrip
内容简介: Sam走向邪恶,点燃了人界. 在Dean把他召唤回来之后, 他心里充满内疚, 想要偿还自己的过失.... (Dean的视角)
我不太介意看简介, 喜欢自己看自己想~ (内容好感动!```>_<```)
要看记得把网页底下的背景音乐关掉~
10/28/2008 同性恋婚姻错误的10大理由中文翻译 点我
10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong...
1) Being gay is not natural. And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicon breasts... 2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay. In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall. 3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next. 4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal. 5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed. 6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children. 7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children. 8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America. 9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children. 10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans. Re-post this if you believe love makes a marriage. Vote NO on Prop 7~ LOL~ 9/11/2008 they moved together~ SQUEEEEEEEE~~~I put a spell on you two, coz i wanna see you fall together.
*evil grin*
"Ackles & Jared Padalecki at Redbull Soapbox Race" Image Credit from girlgeek 9/10/2008 偶滴字典里米有"兄弟情"这个词咳咳~ 作为小组的管理员,我把这个帖子放在这里,就当作是为J2宣传,希望同人男女/潜在的同人男女踊跃加入我们的大家族.
严禁二次转载
作者: 红叶飘零 转自VerCD社区"自由边界"
 这二人是每每看到能让我陷入情绪疯狂不能自已的最最火爆的银幕兄弟: Dean Winchester (哥哥,左) 和 Sam Winchester (弟弟, 右) 兄弟二人来自美剧"Supernatural (简称SPN)/ 邪恶力量 / 恶鬼凶灵",是故事中的男主角, 他们二人现在是全美成千上万同人女(没错,美国的同人女,同样勇猛)追捧的对象! 近年来在下一直混在欧美同人社区中,深受震撼.同一个世界同一个梦想,此话真不假啊! 目前该剧已经进展到第4季, (第四季08年九月份开演) 作为腐女一只,能有如此上乘的真人拿来YY,简直是全世界最最最最最幸福的事情了~~~ >_< 我相信,社区中无论哪只看了这部剧,基本都会中箭的. 推销视频:
我强烈建议各位去注册youtube的帐户,看完之后,如果觉得好,用中文也好,英文也好,留点只字片语的评论. 简介: 我在这里侧重介绍一下剧中兄弟的关系. 首先是哥哥Dean Winchester.  Dean比弟弟大4岁,他在四岁那年在一场大火中失去了母亲,并在事故发生时抱着6个月大的Sam冲出火场.从此跟着父亲一起猎鬼,像一个战士一样被抚养长大,过着居无定所的日子.他外表轻浮,其实勇敢又忠诚.对父亲从不忤逆,叫做什么做什么,不过贯彻的最好的一句命令还要算是"照顾好你弟弟"了,即使Sam已经是个大人,完全有能力照顾好自己了. Dean为了他的宝贝弟弟,心甘情愿付出他的一切.这也是最让Sam困惑,感动同时也反感的一点. 弟弟Sam Winchester  母亲被杀的时候Sam才仅仅6个月,自然他没有母亲Mary的任何记忆,但是从懂事的时候起,他就必须背负这触摸不及的仇恨,和兄父在复仇之路上前行,这不是他想要的生活,(至少曾经他这么认为) 凭着自己努力,Staford大学法律系以全额奖学金录取了Sam. 在父亲愤怒的斥责,Dean失望受伤的眼神中,他离开了. 终于,他的生活没有了血腥,鬼怪,没有了黑暗,漂泊. 终于他能铸造自己的梦想了: 成为一名律师,和Jess建立一个稳定的家庭,生一群可爱的小孩.....一个正常人的生活. 其他都不重要...不重要. 可惜Sam忘了,有些事,有些人,不是说摆脱就可以摆脱掉的.比如命运,比如Dean. 附赠Winchester一家幸福团圆图: =v=|||  关于兄弟二人的配对: 配对的争论是永恒的. 经过这几年的观察,在下认为,无论谁来当Top都是有道理. Dean/Sam: 很多人看照片的第一映像是年下攻, 其实看过电视剧后,Dean/Sam是普遍被接受的(阁下完全可以不同意我的意见哦).首先是因为,Dean是一个保护者的角色,其次他打架比较厉害,身边总是围着女人.而Sam内向,忧郁,敏感,害羞,甚至有点神经质. Sam/Dean: Sam的性格中也有很多强势因素(比如固执,很有主见),外加身材比哥哥高出去一节,随着年级的增长,少年的青涩逐渐退去了.而Dean对弟弟有着不可质疑的"献身精神"(.....=v=||||),扮演者Jensen也有公认的美人气质,所以倒过来也完全没问题. 大家在剧中当然还可以找很多论据,尽管自由表达,欢迎讨论.严禁掐架. 扮演者Jensen Ackles和Jared Padalecki在幕后也是非常要好的朋友.(证据点我) 每当他们一起公开亮相的时候,千万同人都会密切关注二人的一言一行,一颦一笑,企图诠释出什么"特别的"感情来.当然每次都有惊喜和收获哦~ 兄弟二人同性恋和乱伦的讨论在SPN众多影迷中间可以说引起许多强烈争论.反对者中不乏恶言相向的.不过由于的得到了原作者Eric和两位演员的默许(鼓励?),我们同人女的队伍,于是可以继续幸福壮烈的发展下去~~~ 这里的许多故事,就等你看完SPN, 加入J2社区,我再慢慢讲给你听.... 应大梅要求,加JQ图一张~  邪恶力量小组: J2星球  邪恶力量VeryCD下载导航 Winchestor兄弟YY群: 28260936 8/28/2008 08年8月28日,手机每次写开头都得酝酿半天.....觉得应该解释一下好久没来的原因,想想还是算了~who cares, well i don't~haha
^罒^
这两天想换个新手机.事情是这样发生的:
索爱那个W950不知道怎么回事,先是不断的自动关机.
然后某天看小说看的突然间崩溃.
什么第三方软件也按不了了,原来的联系人,短信....统统丢失.
 幸好我的小说都在!不然我真撞去墙了.
不幸发生之后,我立刻在网上向好友求助,让他把他那里我认识的联系人信息用短信发来.
最先得到的回复是"猪头你把手机掉茅坑啦?"
"......"
yeah, i wish.=_=||||
然后第二天他发来的所有短信又莫名奇妙消失了!
technology这玩意儿实在是太不可靠了!
于是我拿起小本本把大家用QQ, MSN和校内的电话号码,统统写了下来....
本以为事情先告一段落.
没想到第三天本子就找不到了.
......
 i give up.
maybe i've been cursed or something. anyway....
next time i want to call someone, i 'll just ask for the numbers from others who know.
Back to my new Phone.
iphone当然是我的最佳选择了,主要是大屏,看小说最方便,而且不需要按任何第三方软件就可以读txt文件.
听说北京3G模式已经降到4990了.
在学校的时候,朋友借我他的iphone 8G用了1个星期,可以说是爱不释手~但是要我花5000元弄一个,那是没可能的.(i m not a idiot.=_=)
3500我会考虑一下.
3000我可能会买.
2500我肯定买.
其实这款手机除了外形和操作系统意外,其他功能没啥可称道的.
(悠哉滴等待...)
5/5/2008 One word that you don't want to say.There's always a door you do not want to open,
8/13/2007 临晨:发现窗户上结满了冰花2007/11/15
整整一天的课
之前彻夜未眠赶工赶点 早上只好灌一杯浓浓的咖啡 以保证不在上学路上走着睡着 两大勺,不是开玩笑. 18小时过去了 咖啡功力尚存 我连个哈气都没有打过 ......想睡觉的说.  1/28/2007 "南京梦魇"观后小扎[转载]Darkness of 'Nanking' is forever meaningful
By Robert Denerstein, Rocky Mountain News
January 27, 2007 Sometimes a bus ride is more than a bus ride. Saturday, I emerged from Park City's Library Center Theatre into a graying afternoon. Snow had begun falling, and my mood was anything but festive.  Yale Divinity School Library © Bloomberg
A Japanese soldier prepares to behead a Chinese man in this image from the documentary Nanking, which chronicles a group of Westerners who attempted to save Chinese lives during the 1937 invasion. In addition to coping with the usual Sundance hassles, I'd just watched Nanking, a heartbreaking documentary about the Japanese bombing and ravaging of the city of Nanking in 1937.
In the history of human atrocities, Nanking holds a dark place. Some 20,000 Chinese women were raped in the first month of a brutal Japanese occupation. A total of 250,000 Chinese died and many more were forever scarred by what they witnessed.
The film represents the kind of innovative nonfiction film that typifies this year's documentaries, according to festival director Geoffrey Gilmore.
Directors Bill Guttentag and Dan Sturman have found horrific archival footage, but also employ a cast of actors (sitting in a circle) to read testimony from westerners who were in Nanking during the invasion, and who ultimately tried to establish a safe zone within the city. Their goal: to protect as many Chinese as possible. Among the actors we see are Woody Harrelson and Mariel Hemingway.
This technique becomes less apparently self-conscious as footage from 1937 and riveting testimony from survivors begin to take hold.
But back to that bus ride. While waiting for a bus after the screening, I struck up a conversation with a man who had just watched the same film.
"What did you think?" I asked.
He smiled and paused for a moment.
"Well, I'm Japanese," he said.
Neither of us said anything for a minute. I tried to imagine how difficult it would be to watch Nanking, knowing your country had been responsible for horrors that rose to the level of war crimes.
"How old are you?" I asked.
"I'm 38. So, what did you think of the film?"
"Very powerful," I said.
"Yes, but I wonder, 'Why now?' Why 60 years later are we seeing this film?"
"I guess it's because many of us (myself included) don't know enough about this sad chapter of history. Do you agree that that's a strong enough reason?"
"Yes," he said. "I knew about Nanking, but . . ."
He went on to tell me that he was a former journalist who now worked as a film distributor. He was at Sundance mostly to look at documentaries. He said that his generation knows that something took place in Nanking, but may be unaware of the magnitude of what happened. In any case, Nanking remains a controversial subject in Japan, he said.
"We have to get along with the Chinese," he said.
When we got on the bus, we turned our conversation to other matters and other films. But I credit this man with looking at a film that probably has little commercial value in his own country. He was willing to acknowledge a painful reality and talk about it with a stranger.
That's a better bus ride than you can get in most places, and one of the real pleasures of this film festival.
Robert Denerstein 12/12/2006 潮湿枯萎的城市里,你的笑容给我阳光.
6/11/2006 A Little Pain (NANA ED)OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (TRAPNEST) - A little pain PV (NANA ED) I'm so addicted to this video that i wanna share it with you as sonn as i found it. Basically this is the ending theme for NANA anime. I was deeply touched when i first time heard it, after that i was looking for the complete music record almost everywhere. It feels like Olivia is performing Reira from Trapnest! Actually OLIVIA is half Japanese & half German. She's fluent in both English and Japanese since she lived between Japan and the US during her childhood. quite similar charactors to Reira, isn't she?^_^
I believe the scenes will be kept in your mind for a long time. Enjoy! MV: Click
MP3: Click
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女人的名字叫做男人,男人的名字叫逃避 逃避的名字叫做酒,酒的名字叫做水 水的名字叫做女人 4/15/2006 The heart is the sleeping beauty.
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